First, i would like to congratulate the team for putting up a good fight against the Tertiary Champion Team. Great job guys…
On our way to TP, i was still feeling as per normal, not nervous but not relaxed… i told myself we are going there to gain experience, not to win.
Everyone felt jittery about the match when we arrived at the court because we recognise some of the stronger players.
During free spikes, i could jump the height that i wanted, but somehow my body doesn’t adapt to the net height (slightly higher than what we play) and the spikes kept hitting the white strip on the top of the net, losing power. I gave myself an excuse to blame on. The net.
Further on we proceeded with the match. The first 2 sets we were playing at a normal standard with no exceptional performance. I didn’t get to touch the ball much and so i didn’t make much mistakes in the game. I was cheering all along for the team, hoping to raise the morale and making the game more fun and exciting.
However when the 3rd set began, i somehow began to restrain myself in terms of cheering. Don’t know if i was tired or just simply lazy, i didn’t cheer much for the 3rd set. haha Shawn was the one doing all the work, scoring, blocking and i was like moving from left to right, then back to left when the point ended. (Dancing in the court?) (Btw, i’m not mentioning the scores or the wins because in all they did a good job and that’s all that matters)
When the 4th set began, i start to mess up A LOT. FIrst ball flying all over, spiking into the net, slow in my blocking, not reacting fast enough for sudden ball…. all these constitute to my low morale… on the other hand, the whole team had performed very well, in terms of enthusiasm and skills. Joash played VERY WELL, Shawn played VERY well, Sim played VERY WELL, Zuo Kun (uzuok) played as usual (imba power) and Zhi kai strong silent powerhouse(needless to say that he played VERY WELL also). If i recall, i dont remember any mistakes from them.
The lack of morale in myself and my performance falling during match made me very depressed and totally no mood to play on. I didnt want to affect the others who were in such high morale, so i faked a front, occasionally cheering with my sub-conscious.
Even my coach commented that i was very confused in the court ( i know he meant i played lousy) and he changed my position for the 5th set to be an open spiker, a position i had not played in a year. To some extent, i couldn’t adapt quickly and made more mistakes =.= while the rest are enjoying the high morale of the team during the game.
is it because i crack under pressure? is it because i’m just too lousy? is it because i didn’t put in my 100%? i constantly asked myself during the bus trip home and i couldn’t find an answer. I hid behind that curtain not because i want to sleep. but because i had to sort my thoughts out. 2 drops of tear fell. A depserate attempt to search for a solution to my incompetence. I’m just a vball fren, not a vball teammate.
YY hoping to find that solution soon… Once again, Good Work PJ.
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